Going Taiwan

Off to Taiwan in a few hours.....will be back on 5th June.......

Getting real excited now......

Will blog some more when I'm back........

Sayonara!!!

Makeover photos......

Phantom of the Opera

Went to the Esplanade on Sunday to watch Phantom of the Opera with my ex-colleagues.....

It's the first time I've been inside the Esplanade.....as in really go in there to watch a play or musical.....appreciation of fine arts.......Ooh....I feel so artistic n class........haha.....as if......

However the tix we bought are the cheapest ones.....so our seats are those with restricted views....n it's REALLY restricted view man......there are all those thick wires that blocked our view.....one of one my colleague even suggested me biting away all wires......Hm.....my teeth not that strong and powerful leh.....n we can't really see the right hand side of the stage......so we really had to lean our bodies forward throughout the show so as to see better.......it was really tiring........

But overall the performance is a good one......the ladies' singing power are really powerful man......they can really hit all those high notes.......n hold for a long time at the high note......Wah....if it's me......halfway my voice would have crack......n i would duan qi liao.....hahaha.....

Throughout my life so far......things have been smooth sailing for me.....even to the point you can say that my life is a boring me.......nothing ever major happened to me......no dramatic kind of events for me to encounter........

From young, my life is just going to school, passing exams....going on to the next level....passing exams again.....and then off to the next level again.......From my primary school days to my JC days......even though my results are not that fanastic......I still managed to pass all my major exams........

But from my 2nd year at uni onwards......I keep failing exams......did I really not studied hard enough?

This year supposed to be my final year.....(I already took one year longer than the others).....but just 2 days before my 1st paper...... I suddenly, completely broke down......I don't know what happened......I was juz so stressed out........I couldn't sleep and eat well.......I keep getting giddy spells.......My whole body tensed up all the time.......At this point of time......I couldn't get any of the materials that I'm studying inside my mind.....what I studied juz leaked out.....I couldn't retain the information.......and this makes me panic.....and the more I panic....the more I couldn't study.

I tried to telling myself to calm down....telling myself I can do it......but it's juz no use......My mind is contantly at two extreme ends........One moment after I told myself to be postitve....I really believe I can do it.....but the next moment.......I got depressed again n started doubting myself......This is the first time I ever felt so afraid........I mean whenever there's exams I would get stressed.......but not as serious as this time.......it's like I would juz snap anytime......I really don't know why this is happening to me........This is the first time I felt so so so stressed.......

Now.....I have decided to absent from some of my exams and retake next year........

I told my parents abt my worries.....n I think my parents also shocked to see me like this.....first time see me so stressed......they are understanding.......n don't mind me taking another year.......juz don't me to be stressed anymore.......But I feel so sad n guilty for giving up......and wasting another year......

I see all my frenz graduate liao......n I'm still so slow.......

I wonder if I really suited for this degree??? But spending so much money n time......I guess the only way is for me to go on......I MUST make next year my final liao.......ABSOLUTELY......I can't go on indefinitely.......

Now.......I'm still suffering from the after effects of my stress.......my health not v good at the moment......

Max level of stress right now.......

Have been staying at home all this while....becoming a hermit liao.......

Time running out....I must Jia You!!! Ganbatte!!!